I have a really hard time dealing with death. Not hard in the sense that it makes me bawl like a baby or it breaks my heart into a million pieces. Not like that. For me it’s more like “What’s the big deal”? Ok so before you start throwing rotten tomatoes at me and calling me a heartless demon hear me, or should I say, read me out. I’m a true believer in the Afterlife and here’s my take on it all.
I’ve actually never had anyone in my family or anyone really close to me die. Ok so my dad died and that was ok, I mean he was 88. I never got along with him anyway and his death was a blessing for me. And then I had a high school friend die of cancer. That was another blessing as she was just suffering so much anyway.
A few years back my sister tragically lost her husband and I felt really sad for her and the children. I imagine, God willing, my mom will die soon, another blessing. She’s been clinically dead for 10 years (Alzheimers, you suck). Then, you know, the usual aunts and uncles and old people. I mean, we’re all gonna die anyway right?
If anything tragic should happen to my son and he dies I will be terribly sad but he’s lived such a wonderful life already at only 28. And yes, of course, I will miss him terribly but and of course I am going to cry hardcore and feel like my heart was ripped out of my chest….but……lemme tell you why I’m rather relaxed about this whole death thing and why I really suck at mourning.
This book on the Afterlife
Awhile back I discovered this book and was completely intrigued by the title. I found the FB page as well and fell in love with it. But I really needed to buy and download this book and read it. What happened then? My mind was blown wide open.
The Afterlife of Billy Fingers=Mind blowing
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I have heard about the afterlife. People talk about it all the time. I think it’s a thing. I mean, I really do believe that there is something after this life. I had no clue what it was, but I figured there was something. I mean, where does our soul go? I never did think that we just die and the end that’s it it’s over. Impossible, I say.
So I read this book. I think I finished it in about 45 seconds (ok slight exaggeration). Honest to God after reading it my first thought was “holy cow I can’t wait to die!!!” Sounds morbid I know. I mean I honestly don’t really want to die anytime soon because my life here on earth is super sweet and I got some serious work to do here that God has called me to do so I’m really busy right now and not quite ready to go to the other side.
This whole afterlife thing sounds ridiculously, pardon the pun, heavenly. It sounds like the most magical wonderful amazing existence ever. Who wouldn’t want to hurry up and go? It opened my eyes to my life here on earth and the things that are in me now that I forget I have.
It also opened my eyes to death and the fact that death isn’t the end. Death isn’t quite as terrifying as we all think it is. Death isn’t quite as ugly and dark as I used to think it was. It actually sounds like it would be better than life on earth (but then I guess that’s all perspective really).
But the real problem is this…..
When I learn of someone passing away or someone who is dying, though my first initial reaction is shock and sadness, it is overtaken by happiness and almost jealousy. Wow lucky you!! You get to die and go to that magical afterlife place. Sick, right? Or? I dunno. Sounds to me like death is a beautiful place. Why wouldn’t I be happy for them? And for anyone who is suffering here on earth, death, or should I say the afterlife, definitely sounds like a way better place for them.
So you see I have a bit of a hard time mourning. I mean, I do mourn, a little, but mostly for the people left here after they have lost their loved one. I’m sad for them, for sure. But I’m secretly happy for the person who just left. I personally think their new life is gonna rock so hard!
Catch you on the other side.
Peace and Love
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