I’m sure you’ve heard that expression before. When you give up, it’s game over. We fight to stay in the game so hard some days. Some days you wonder what it’s all for. It can feel hopeless.
I’ve recently been feeling like this. I work hard, up to 12 hours a day some days. I take little “me” breaks and then feel guilty because I think I should be working. I work til my head wants to explode, At the end of the day I go to bed and wonder if I accomplished anything of great value.
Did I make a difference in someone’s life today? Did I manage to touch at least one life? Am I on the right path? Is any of this working? It can all be very overwhelming sometimes.
I feel like giving up
Yup. Some days I just wanna pack it all in. I can’t see the fruits of my labour. I can’t feel the impact I’m making. I sit alone in my apartment up to 12 hours a day and get so fed up that I want to curl up in a ball and just tap the fuck out.
There are days I just want to give up and call game over. I’m done. So done. I’m not even sure what the driving force is some days to keep me going. I think this work ethic is just innate now. It’s all I’ve known for the last 3 years of my freelancing career. Work, write, engage, connect. Rinse and repeat.
Show me something?
Do you often feel like that? What’s it all for? Why do I keep doing what I’m doing? I feel like I’m on a hamster wheel going nowhere fast. It’s exhausting, it’s frustrating, it’s lonely and it’s somewhat aggravating. When will the rewards show itself?
Some of you may have been working really hard on a project. Maybe you have a dream you’re trying to actualize. Or could it be that you have an idea or a goal you are working toward and it seems almost pointless, hopeless if you will.
There aren’t any signs or clues that you are on the right path. Nothing. Crickets. When? When will something, anything, show itself to let me know I’m doing ok and I need to stay on my path and that it’s not game over?? When?
Is the game over for real?
I think about this sometimes and it’s usually just a very fleeting thought. I can’t give up. I didn’t come this far to only come this far. I’m not done. I’m far from done. It’s not game over for me, even though I really want it to be some days.
And then two things happen to me today that just confirm, I’m ok and keep going. My friend who is a podcast junkie critiques my new podcast and tells me it’s fantastic. Phew. Yay me. I’m doing ok.
And then over on Tailwind (this may be confusing for some here and I’m sorry) in a tribe I belong to over there (where we share each other’s pins) Tony Robbins is now a member and he re-pins one of my inspirational quotes. Are you fucking kidding me right now??
It’s the little things
Things that may be little to some people but are so fucking huge to others, like me. Though Tony Robbins re-pinning one of my quotes isn’t exactly a little thing (though to him it might have been) it’s things like that that make me realize it’s all good. I’m on the right path.
It’s when you are at the breaking point that something usually gives. Something finally happens. Just when we’re about to give up and call game over, there’s a light.
It could be the smallest flicker of light. A tiny little flame. A spark if you will. Look for the little things that gently remind you you’re on the right path. You’re doing ok. Keep going. Don’t give up.
You didn’t come this far to only come this far. It’s not game over. Ever.
Peace and Love
xo iva xo