I love who I am. I strive to be authentic. It’s taken me awhile to get here, to this happy place I’m at now, but man oh man I sure love it. One of my former co-workers one day looked over at me and said, with this huge funky smile on her face, “My God, Iva, you are such a free spirit!!” I am.
Her statement really made me stop and think. Omg, she’s right. I am. I actually had to take a step back and take that in. I AM a free spirit. What an absolutely wonderful feeling.
I don’t know how to be authentic.
For years, I’ve tried to fit in, follow the crowd, be accepted, make everyone else happy (though I do still try to do that), you get my point. I’ve spent so much time, and notice I said spent, not wasted, trying to be someone I’m not. I spent so much time pretending to be someone I’m not. I didn’t even know how to be authentic. Wasn’t even in my vocabulary.
It was all so downright exhausting!!
I always tried to do the right thing, whatever that was. I struggled all my life to find out who I am, what my purpose is, what makes me tick, what makes me happy. Have I got it all figured out yet? I’m pretty close. One thing I do know for sure is that I’m happier now then I ever have been in my whole life.
Then I woke up and it all got real.
So why did things change? Why did I decide I didn’t want to be like this anymore?
Because I was so done:
- living my life for everyone else
- pretending I’m someone I’m not
- living a lie
- painting on a happy face
- conforming to how society says I should behave at my age
- wasting away my life and not being true to me
I can’t complain about how long it took me to figure this out. The life I lived and the things I lived through were meant to be. I wouldn’t change a single thing (except I’m still kinda pissed I didn’t win the $50 million Lotto Max)
Who are you anyway?
Do you find yourself complaining and whining about the things you did, your faults, your mistakes, your life lessons? Stop doing that!! You are who you are and you are beautiful exactly how you are. You are you! There’s no one else like you and no one can live your life but you. If you are still desperately trying to fit in and please everyone, please stop doing that.
The world needs and wants to see YOU. Authentic and beautiful you.
You have unique talents, a wonderful personality, fun and exciting passions and a soul that’s longing to be felt around the world (or at least around your friends and family anyway). People will love you or hate you and none of it has anything to do with you. Remember that!
It doesn’t matter who you try to be are or how hard you try to make everyone happy, at the end of the day, none of that matters. The only thing that matters is you, how happy you are and if you feel good about who you are.
You are not here to fit in, blend in or be someone else. This is the only life you have. Live it as you.
Be loud, be unique, be different, be free but most importantly JUST BE YOU!!
Peace and love,