This is a new word for me. Narcissism. To be perfectly honest with you, I didn’t even really know what one was. I had to Google the definition. Then I Googled covert passive aggressive narcissist. Phew.
It all sounded terrible!! And it all made sense to me.
From some of the blogs I was reading, I knew that a narcissistic person was evil. Then I Googled even more to see what some passive aggressive narcissistic traits were. Oy. It was all very crystal clear to me from that moment on.
The passive aggressive narcissists in my life
If we’re gonna be honest here, I didn’t even know if I had people in my life who had narcissistic traits. Who are they anyway? Turns out I had one or two, or 10. Who knew?
Well, apparently not me.
Until I finally found out what it meant. Then it got real. It was time for me to figure out how that happened, and to make sure it never happened again. You know, the whole *allowing narcissists into my life, staying in my life and controlling my life* thing.
Ya, I needed to do some self discovery (again or still, geezus). I needed to go back a few years in my life and see if there was a pattern. And then I needed to do whatever it took to make sure that I put an end to this vicious cycle of having covert passive aggressive narcissists in my life.
I also needed to find out:
- who I was,
- where I was weak,
- what did I need to work on personally
- how to find self respect
- how to form boundaries
Ooph I had a lot of work to do.
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Living with someone who is a covert passive aggressive narcissist
Anyone else here have experience living with a narcissist? Such fun, amirite? Geesh. It’s a no win situation. No matter what you do or say, you’re always wrong, bad, stupid and unworthy, of anything, ever.
It’s also not that easy to leave someone who is a covert passive aggressive narcissist and don’t we wish more people would understand this? These abusers have sucked all the life out of us and have mastered manipulating us into believing everything is our fault.
You almost have to experience it to understand it. People say ‘just leave’!! We wish we could.
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Being a narcissistic abuse victim
The victims. The ones who put up with all that bull for how many years? Oh so many. Funny thing is I didn’t even know there was a name for it. This toxic behaviour of theirs. I just thought they were all jerks.
But they’re more than that. Who knew?
I often thought I must be overreacting. There must be something wrong with me. Am I too sensitive? There’s nothing wrong with their behaviour. Maybe it’s just a result of childhood trauma.
I mean we’re all a little broken anyway right? That’s their way of expressing their brokenness. I express my brokenness through temper tantrums (don’t judge) and crying.
So, anyway, call me naive if you want, I don’t really care but when I realized that I was a narcissistic abuse victim, oh man, I had several a-ha moments. Seriously. My whole life opened up wide for me to dissect.
The passive aggressive covert narcissist is smooth, real smooth
I’m only going to discuss 10 traits here but if you Google covert passive aggressive narcissist, you’ll find many more. In my opinion, these are the ones to watch for.
And keep in mind, these guys are smooth. They have a magnetic quality to them that can’t be explained but not in a good way either. It’s like a toxic magnet.
I get that some of the people in our lives who suffer with narcissistic personality disorder aren’t so easy to get away from. Parents, co-workers, other family members.
We’re actually kinda stuck with them, if you will, but you can limit the time you spend around them OR you can be bold and stand up to them!
Sadly, too many of us lose ourselves in relationships with narcissists and can’t seem to find a way out.
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10 Covert passive aggressive narcissist traits
Without further ado, here we go…
1 They have big egos
I just thought it was a *thing*. None of us are perfect right? Some people have bigger egos than others. No big deal.
But it is a big deal. They are ego driven. Their importance is all that matters. Ever. You take a back seat. All the time. You put them on a pedestal because you love them (and in their eyes there is no other place to be) and you feel sorry for their brokenness.
2 They are very defensive
I just thought they were trying to stand up for what they believed in, passionately. I didn’t realize whatever they got defensive about was actually chipping away at their precious ego.
I mean, we all believe in something and stand up for it or protect it and we can all get a little defensive about said things, but wow.
SO defensive. To the point where they would get enraged. Like, they are right and you are wrong and shut up and stop this conversation now. This was actually a scary narcissistic trait for me. It confused me.
3 They are very inconsiderate
You know, at one point in my life, I was pretty inconsiderate. I mean, I wasn’t a nice person. But I realized it and changed. I can look back now and chalk it up to being selfish and immature.
People who have narcissistic traits are just plain inconsiderate. Period.
They only think of themselves because they are number one, right? See, I just thought that maybe they were raised that way. You know, like only child syndrome.
What do I know?
4 They can be extremely cocky
That’s not even funny and it’s actually pretty annoying. Mind you, I think we all get a little cocky sometimes, no? It’s an ugly trait that many of us wear, some of us wear it in fun, really. Others are just plain cocky, all the time.
Because they’re right, they’re smart, they’re better than you, they’re perfect, they’re…..jerks, really.
Yup, no clue that this was even a covert passive aggressive narcissist trait.
5 They have many unhealed issues
Quite often, there is something else underlying. They aren’t just being covert passive aggressive narcissists for no reason.
They suffer from depression, anxiety, seriously low self esteem and self confidence (who knew?) and may have been the victim of bullying in their younger years (childhood trauma, right?)
6 They give you the silent treatment
Ah the dreaded silent treatment. Ugh!! This one actually hurts me the most (odd I know) and it’s such a childish manipulative move.
They do this because they want to mentally torment you and make you think you did something terribly wrong and everything is your fault.
It’s not by the way.
7 They poke fun at you
They are constantly poking fun at you, your feelings, your work, your family and/or friends, everything. They never want you to think that you’re doing good or better than them. Ooph that would be tragic.
So they make you feel like you’re dumb, your family is dumb and nothing you do is good, ever. They love to belittle you and they have no problem doing this in front of your family and friends either.
But then, they’re only joking as they would say.
8 They despise criticism
Don’t even try to give them constructive criticism. That’ll backfire on you and of course, end up with you being the bad guy. As usual.
They can’t handle anyone putting them down or telling them they did something wrong. They’re perfect, remember?
Trying to give them any kind of criticism is a recipe for disaster. Don’t bother. Save your time, energy and self worth.
9 They hold grudges
Hard core. A lot. Til the end. Anyone who has ever dissed them ever, in any way shape or form goes on that grudge list. How dare you think they are not awesome and amazing damn you!
Forgiveness and mercy aren’t in their vocabulary. Don’t even bother trying to get them to let go of a grudge. Remember, they’re right, you and everyone else is wrong.
10 They feel inadequate
This actually kinda surprising. They do feel inadequate, an awful lot, and this comes out in bullying, mocking others, emotional manipulation and so many more toxic traits.
They don’t ever want you to think they have feelings of inadequacy because it’s a sign of weakness to them. They need to make sure you always remember they are strong, they are the best, they are fearless and brave…but they’re not.
I mean there is so much more to the narcissist that I seriously didn’t know. That we don’t know or understand.
I didn’t even know there was a name for this. And then I took inventory of my life and went *Oh I get it now*. All the narcissistic traits suddenly matched a few people in my life.
So what do you do about it? How do you get away from it or deal with it?
Honestly, I have no answers. I try to see the good in everyone. We all have bad in us and we all have so much good in us. Really we do.
Dealing with a narcissist is no easy feat
Trust me, I know. A lifetime of this has shown me that you must be super strong and dig deep to find your self confidence and even some balls. It takes a big strong person to deal with a narcissist, shut them down and walk away.
I love helping people to do that. Find and pull up their big girl/boy panties and be the bigger person.
Check out Kim Saeed’s program to help you breakfree from your narcissist!!
Do you have someone in your life who is a covert passive aggressive narcissist?
Do you recognize any of these narcissistic traits in your partner, family member, co worker or someone else in your life? I totally get how hard it is to deal with them. Trust me, I know.
But it’s not impossible. If you are in a relationship with a narcissist you may need to talk to someone or even think about leaving. If leaving isn’t an option, is counselling an option?
Kim Saeed has an amazing course you might want to check out :The Essential Break Free Boot Camp
Will your narcissist recognize his/her own signs and want to seek help? There are many things you need to think about before leaving or making the decision to leave but one most important thing is your happiness.
You are number one and you must take care of yourself and your happiness first and foremost.
Helping others is my jam
I’m a healer and helper. I realized that deep inside of me is that person who wants to fix everyone’s brokenness. I’m that girl. *Here let me fix you. You don’t have to be like this forever. Let’s make you better*.
But you can’t fix people. That’s not why we’re here. We’re here to love people. That’s all.
So the bottom line?
Look for the good and if you can’t, then maybe it’s time to just send them love and walk away.
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