Right now I know you want to know what I’m smoking. You think I’ve lost my senses. Why the fuck do you want to thank your abusers? Iva, are you ok?
I’m ok. Really I am. Maybe I am a little high but we’re all friends here and there’s no harm in enjoying some medicinal weed, ammirite?
Let’s talk about the abuse first, shall we?
I dunno, do we have to? Do you really need to know how I was physically abused by my parents, or how my husband thought it would be good idea to rape me after I threw his sorry ass out of our house? I mean, do you really need to know how many more boyfriends abused me physically, emotionally and verbally? The fact that one of my best friends stole $1000 from me while I was on my way to my new life in Guatemala, is that necessary to talk about?
Do we need to talk about it? Of course we do. Just not in full gory details. I mean, who needs to hear all that bullshit anyway? But we need to know of the abuse I suffered to get the full meaning of the forgiveness I’ve given each and every one of them.
Forgiveness is beautiful.
It’s so beautiful. Really and truly it is and if you haven’t completely forgiven anyone, then you don’t know what you’re missing. With forgiveness comes peace, love, freedom and gratitude.
How’s that you wonder? Lemme explain. I’ve never had more gratitude and love in my heart in my whole fucking life. All thanx to my abusers. (she’s lost her marbles clearly) Here are 5 things I have to thank them for:
For showing me how not to act.
Man you guys are assholes. Sheesh. No really in all seriousness. Nice loving people don’t treat others poorly. Plain and simple. Only assholes do that. So you’ve spent a better part of your life giving me Life Lesson #1 –
Thanx for that! It took me a little while to learn that lesson though but I finally got it! Yay me.
So much love, I can’t even stand it.
The love I have in my heart never ceases to amaze me. Some days I wonder how it never busts out of my chest. For real! You know, the power of forgiveness really is mindblowing. Once I decided it was time to forgive you all and release you, well, you’d think the heavens parted every fucking cloud in the sky and just poured love down on me.
I loved every drop of it. What you did to me showed me how to forgive and open my heart to goodness.
Oh man I can smell one a mile away. No shit. Spending my whole life with liars, cheaters, bullies, narcissists and abusers gave me this superb ability to sniff them out quickly. It’s like there’s this neon light flashing right over their heads but only I can see it. I’m glad I have that superpower now. What I do with it, still needs to be worked out a little bit.
Now that I know when one of “your type” is near, I can hold my head up high, smile and walk away.
Watch me grooooooow!!!
My, how I’ve grown. I have learned so much in the past 52 years of my life, all thanx to you guys. I feel like I’m such a strong woman. So brave, so strong, always smiling and mostly just walking around all happy and proud.
Can you believe that thanx to you I’ve grown, and continue to grow more beautiful every day? I know, it’s crazy right? You see, I still have triggers every now and then, and I have to be brave, deal with them, learn how to handle them and then send them away. Yay me!!
Oh, Great Wise One.
You’re not even gonna believe this but because of you guys, and all the shit you put me through, and all the healing I went through to deal with it, I can now actually teach, help and inspire people around the world. Boom!!!
I fucking love this one. If it wasn’t for you guys, well what would be my special gift to the world? Chocolate?
Because of you I’ve started my own website and Facebook page (and my page is doing pretty good actually). I reach between 2-5 million people every week with inspirational and motivational messages. Because of all the abuse I suffered at your hands, I can now help millions around the world. (that still blows my fucking mind!!)
So you see, my life isn’t as horrible as you might like it to be. I’m actually doing pretty fucking good considering. Thank you.
i think i have the munchies~
Peace and Love