The Truth About Self Love and Why it’s so Hard to Keep.

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You know, I’ve come a long way from where I was, say, 5 years ago. I mean back then I really hated myself. Almost everything about me sucked. Except for my hair. I always have nice hair. Anyway. Self love was never even thought of. Never crossed my mind once. Didn’t even know what self love was, really. I discovered the truth in a smack upside your head kinda way.

So ya, I hated me and my life and just everything was bad. All the time. It was just after I left my last relationship that I really started working on me. Self confidence and all the other *selfs* which include: esteem, worth, respect but most importantly, self love!

It was time to start being happy and stop being miserable. And oh man, was I miserable. Ask any of my friends. All I did was whine and complain. Anyway, the journey began and let me tell ya, it’s not an easy journey.

The 1st self?

The first *self* I needed to work on? Self love. Yup. The hardest one of all. (go big or go home, right?) I didn’t even know where to start. I had no clue. I knew nothing about love. All I knew about love was that it came with conditions and it hurt all the time. I knew, or so I thought, I had to give and give and put up with all sorts of ridiculous abuse in order to have it and keep it.

Yup, that’s all I knew about love. It sucked and it hurt. So where do I go from here? How will I learn, who will I turn to, how does this work?

I had a million questions and no answers. Nope, not a one. Off I went to figure out this self love stuff myself. Hard lessons and all.

Though I certainly haven’t got it all figured out just yet, I did discover quite a few things about myself and about the learning process on my way to self love. I’m still learning but I thought I’d take a minute to share some things here with you in my hopes that they may either help you, alert you, resonate with you or guide you. Take what you want, leave the rest.

The truth about self love

Hard truth #1

It’s all up to you. There’s no magic wand, no magic pill, no magic potion you can drink that offers instant self love and gratification ( tequila doesn’t count, I soon discovered). The truth is, no one is going to come running to your rescue to show you how it’s done or where self love comes from. Nope. You’re on your own to figure it out. There are books, oh there are a million books and blogs on self love and you can read them til the cows come home. Bottom line? It’s up to you.

Hard truth #2

It takes a long time to get there. I mean to the place where you love yourself enough that no one and/or nothing can mess that up for you. I’m still working on it, every day as a matter of fact, and I love myself a lot!! Yet I still hit walls, I still fall down, I still break my own heart. And just when I think I am glowing from all the self love I’ve got built up inside of me, whammo, my candle goes out.

Yup. It takes a long time to get to that “self love” place.

Hard truth #3

Well that was stupid!!! Yup. I hear myself say this to me a lot. What on earth did you do that for? I thought you loved yourself! Why did you do that? Smarten up dodo brain. To this day, I still find myself doing stupid things that I would have done 5 years ago. I mean things that clearly show self love is not high on my priority list. Every now and then I revert back to old habits. The truth is, these are the habits I grew up with and maintained for almost 50 years. Dammit, they’re hard to break you know?

Hard truth #4

What’s up with all the testing, Universe? I’m almost starting to feel like a lab rat. Ok, enough already. I get it. The Universe has a peculiar sense of humour and continues to throw things in my path that test my strength in the self love department. Some days I win, some days I lose. Most days I win actually but every now and then something, or should I say someone, will show up and poof, like black magic, I’m the girl I was 5 years ago. Get ready for tests, and lots of them, from the Universe. These tests help you strengthen your self love muscle (or at least, help you grow and learn)

Hard truth #5

You may stand alone. Not everyone will get it. Not everyone will understand you. When you start saying no to things and yes to your self love, people just won’t get it. You may even lose some people along the way and that’s the truth!. That’s ok. The ones you want by your side will stay there. The ones who move on will make room for the ones who deserve to be in your life. People who used to be in your life may not like the new you. They may start distancing themselves. Let ’em go. It may hurt but you will see, in time, how them leaving is for your greatest good. You’ll see.

 

Carrying on…

So as I continue down my path of self love, I will remember these hard truths as they show themselves to me, whether I like them or not. As I continue down my path of self love I will continue to grow, learn, love myself more, fall, cry, hurt myself some but mostly just keep on loving.

Self love takes a lot of hard work but it’s not impossible. You can and will get there one day.

Bartender, how about that tequila?

Peace and Love

Iva

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6 Comments

  • Just what I needed to read today, thank you! I’ve just started my self love journey, and it feels like a massive task! Not gonna give up though!

    • The self love journey is a beautiful one, but frustrating at times. Stay true to you 🙂

      Much love

      xo iva xo

  • Thank you for sharing, I think we do go through periods
    where we do wonder what is going on!! Things eventually
    Are turn to some form of normalcy and then we continue on
    with our self love. Keep up the great work. You are loved?

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